Stuck between a rock and a hard place...

I've been pondering over the idea of writing a biography...actually I know I want to but my main focus is the hardship I went through as a child...mainly from what I can remember my childhood wasn't good in the least bit...any memory of happiness there comes a memory of desolation. There are a few reasons why I haven't started this process one) my dad is the one that put my through it and out of respect for him I would like to create this after his passing 2) I know I haven't gotten over the things that have happened to me in my pass and I know it greatly effected who I am today and why I am today...its going to be a very heart wrenching experience...it will be very therapudic...I'm just not sure if I'm strong enough to go through that yet, although this may be my turning point...I know I need to go through this healing process to fully come into the person I've always meant to be...bascially I'm scared. 3) I just don't know where to start what to say or how to say it...I often tell my stories to my close friends and they're always telling me I need to write this down...write that down...write a book about this...and I want to...I just don't know where to begin. Maybe this is my beggining :)